Tuesday 10 June 2014

IN HONOR OF MY "ME TIME"

I have awesome friends. They are the people I hung around, I call them to say hi when I actually have nothing to say, we  offer each other shoulders to cry on when we are so low, we  celebrate each others  triumphs. That's what friends are for  or at least what friends should be like. We are each others business, we  ensure that we are always on toes in all the important matters that concern us. At the same time we still do all the unimportant matters like catch up for lunch and take selfies  just to ensure that we enjoy and remember every moment we spent together. They play a major role in my life because they influence my way of life and my opinions in a great way.

Even though I have this super-awesome friends, I have grown to understand myself, and who I am. To still ensure that my identity is not derived from the people I spend my time with. To still uphold my personality. I cherish the time I spend with my friends but I still  honor what I call my "me time." My friends have a lot of impact in the choices I make. I ask them for their opinion but even so the life that I live is mine, and I  can  only live it once.  I need that special time to spend it just by myself to think through my life. To do some self-analyzing.

The time I spend by myself fortifies  me, my inner being. From my inner being is where self-love, self-confidence, self-compassion and self-pride comes from.This is what keeps my mind sober when life huddles face me. The   time when my super-awesome friends are no longer so awesome, when reality dawns on me that am just alone.
This is the time I get to reflect and see what face of life I am from, which one I am in apparently and where I visualize to be in the future. If I see that I have improved, It encourages me but at the same time not dwell to much in my success. This reminds me that I am in a race of my own. I am not competing with anyone but myself, with my past.

My "me time" reminds me that I can only live once, I need to do what I love doing, that my gifts, talents and hobbies are my passion. I cannot afford to make myself unhappy, or even if I do, its not the end of life. I should forgive myself and continue with this self-race. It reminds me that I need to live life with a light heart. It tells me that for me to cruise higher I need to be one big grudge hater. I cannot afford to carry people in my heart, My life is way too special to spare my time to think of those who want to hurt me.

Most of all, my special "me time" always reminds me that I can only live a life of one audience. I can only win this race by being me and no one else. No one can be me and so I will not stoop so low by becoming someone else's shadow.
This is why I always honor the time I spend by myself.